Who am I?

 

The “Who am I?” question is pretty much something that everybody faces at some point in their life.

No matter your religion, cultural background, ethnicity or gender, at some point this question comes to “haunt” each us.

This is because we were created, yes… created, with purpose and destiny knitted into our being.

But way back when that serpent convinced mankind to follow the “lusts” of the heart, relationship and unity were destroyed and we surrendered our identity. And so begun the long and age old journey to “discover” Who am I and What is my purpose?

 

Many have tried to answer that question, books have been written, conferences and courses have been organised and vocations have been created all to deal with this one thing. Yet it still remains, Who Am I?

 

I have been on a journey this year with God that has challenged much of what I thought I knew about Him and stretched me beyond what I thought my capacity was.

The more I “reasoned” the more I came to realise that I had a lot of information. I could quote scriptures and recite the teachings and principles that I had heard over the many years that I have been a church going believer. I knew about God, His word and theologies, I had a relationship with Him and my heart’s desire was to serve Him with my all. Then back in January 2018 in a Sunday morning church service He spoke through a prophetic word that would “hit me in the guts” and change me.

I wrote about that prophetic word in my previous post and my choice in response, little did I know back then the journey He was about to take me on. That question “Who am I?” was being dealt with on multiple levels as only God can and He brought me to what at first seemed like the cliff edge. It was no cliff edge however and in fact was the river bank of His unchanging love, absolute faithfulness and unequalled power. I have always had an understanding of Jesus being in me and me being in Him but He has pulled me in deeper and deeper to the fact that as is said in John 14:20

 

“In that day you will know that I am in my Father, and you in me, and I in you.”

 

I know this seems obvious but the more time I spent on this 1 truth – Jesus is in the Father, I am in Jesus and Jesus is in me the more I found it taking root in my heart. So often we know lots and lots in our walk with God but that lots and lots can just sit as “data” in our brain. We can recall it at will, quote it regularly and use it in writings, teachings and debating - however it will always remain as data until it has made the + - 35cm journey from our brain to our heart.

 

Only in the heart can the real truths of God take root and then produce the Love, Life, Hope, Joy and Identity that will answer that question “Who am I” once and for all.

 

John 12 : 24 – 26

Listen carefully: Unless a grain of wheat is buried in the ground, dead to the world, it is never any more than a grain of wheat. But if it is buried, it sprouts and reproduces itself many times over. In the same way, anyone who holds on to life just as it is destroys that life. But if you let it go, reckless in your love, you’ll have it forever, real and eternal.

My identity, security, purpose and reason for being are only found in God. My mind needs to not be the filter through which I understand but my heart because I am in Jesus, He is in me and He is in the Father.

On Christ the solid rock we can have absolute confidence.